I'm worried about you (Sophia)

[elijah samuel allen]

Eli bit his lip pulling his long sleeved shirt on over his head after glancing down at his arms for a few minutes; a bloody towel lay abandoned on the farthest side of the room. Staring at it for a moment he laughed surprised no one noticed it, because any normal person would notice these things about a person’s room. That and the blood stain on his carpet, but no one ever noticed. Not that anyone really noticed much about him anyway, if they did they would probably notice the long clothes, odd behavior, and dislike of hugging as a bad thing. No one didn't though, no one suspected a thing and that almost upsetted him.

It made him feel like no one cared enough to notice anything in his life, since they couldn't just put two and two together and see the truth behind his lies. Elijah Allen was not clumsy and he had never been clumsy a day in his life. Sure he fell sometimes but that was very normal for any teenager, but no normal teenager fell this much. It really was almost an impossible thing, and Elijah knew his secret someday would get told and people would know. In a way, that's just what he was hoping for.

Only one person knew and that was his best friend, he told her everything so this was something he couldn't keep from her. He even showed her the scars when so she believed it; Elijah Samuel Allen really needed help. The only thing is he had no idea how to get help. What he could do though was tell his siblings and see what they thought, and that was just what he was doing starting with Sophia his big sister. Yesterday he told her he really had to talk to her, and she suggested they meet at the park, he thought that was a great idea.

It was a good place, and no one would be able to listen in. That was the very last thing the boy needed happening, everyone knowing his secret. The thought of that made him cringe, walking outside he sighed at the fact it was warm out. Warm air and long clothes did not mix; he knew he would be sweating if he didn't faint from heat stroke first. Only thing he could do was just ignore it though and hope for the best, whatever the best turned out to be.

Maybe Sophia would have him roll up his sleeves to see his arms, take up his shirt to see the cuts even on his stomach. Elijah was just a mess, and his cutting his self showed proof to that. Taking a deep unsteady breath he closed his eyes looking to the sky, he always wished his life could be easier but it never ended up that way. "How about you just give me the courage to tell my sister the truth" he said quietly before heading to the park. On his way there he couldn't help but be tense, after he told Sophia what was going on he was sure to have to tell his brothers to.

There was also another thing that bothered him, what Sophia said about her boyfriend. Sure he knew the guy beat her and for that he wished he could kill him, but that was against the law and he was very weak and would probably get killed in the process his self so he had to push that out of his mind. "She better be okay" he said to his self, he always worried about his sister. As his sibling probably worried about him and the way he acted all the time. Being tense and awkward was not a way for a teenage boy to act, but he couldn't help it.

It was just the way the boy was, and there was no way in changing the way he was like you couldn't change your family. Not that Elijah would ever want tom even though he and Reed bickered a lot and he always asked if he was adopted, he and Brandon were very different people, and he and Sophia didn't talk too much anymore. Elijah really did love his siblings, and he wouldn't change then for anyone in the world. When he finally got to the park he sat down at an empty bench and checked the time on his cell phone, he was early. That was just what he wanted to be though, taking his knife out of his pocket he looked at it for a few minutes and sighed.

This was the item that was ruining his life, glancing down at his sleeve he pulled it up just to glance at his cuts. "I must be really screwed up" he muttered to his self before stuffing his knife back into his pocket, his arm now exposed dozens of cuts. They were straight ones, up and down ones, and looking at them formed tears in his eyes. He only hoped Sophia would understand what went on in his life, dealing with people picking on him, and just being who he was. Sometimes life was too hard, so he found his escape from it all by cutting. Now that he started, the thing is he couldn't seem to stop.

His cutting was now starting to take over his life, and in fact that really scared him. The whole idea of that scared him, and he knew if he didn’t do something he could end up dead and his brothers and sister, as well as his friends would not want that happening. Wiping his eyes with his hand he sighed again, now all he had to do is wait.

(Note: sorry it's a little long and depressing)

[sophia riley allen]

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Sophia walked down the street,hugging her arms.She was going to meet her youngest brother.He had told her the day before that he had something important to say,and this had really worried her.Even though they didn't talk much (mostly because her boyfriend didn't like her to leave the house) the few times they did she noticed how tense he was.Sophia was so worried about her brother,she had snuck out to visit him today.She knew her boyfriend wouldn't like that,but she just had to.

As she walked down the street she thought of her old life.She used to talk to her brothers more,had been really close.She had also been more outgoing and rebellious.She had tended to say things before she spoke,and hadn't cared what anyone else thought.She would were what she liked and had done some pretty extreme things. Hell,she even skate-boarded. Soph sighed,all that had changed when her boyfriend became abusive. Her boyfriend had once been loving,sweet,excepting and funny.She couldn't stand to lose that, and it almost tore her apart when he started hitting her,but for some reason she believed the old Kris was still in there,and was just waiting for him to come out. She believed he still loved her, and she wouldn't be able to find anyone else.He told her himself.

Sophia turned into the park, sunglasses protecting her eyes from the glaring sun.They were doing more then that though, they were also covering a nasty black eye.The jeans and elbow length gloves also covered bruises and cuts. Sophie spotted her brother and walked towards him. As she approached she smiled. He was sitting alone on one of the park benches, she took a seat next to him. facing him she said "Hiya" In a small voice.She looked at his clothing and raised a brow "I'm surprised you haven't passed out yet". He was wearing long clothes.Soph looked down at her hands,which were clasped together in her lap. Last time she had seen her brother in person she had been her old self, rebellious loud and artistic. She also had weighed more,but her boyfriend liked skinnier girls ,so she was forced to lose weight."So Eli,what did you want to talk to me about?" Sophia looked up at his face, and braced herself.

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[elijah samuel allen]

Elijah was worried about his sister to, all the time because of her stupid boyfriend he really wished she would just dump. He wasn't right for her to begin with, his sister deserved the most amazing person in the world and right now the guy she was with wasn't him. He would never tell her though because she knew she loved him and wouldn't leave him, she he felt it wasn't even worth the waste of words trying to convince her. He also knew if what was happening to her got any worse she could be killed, yes Sophia and Eli both had it pretty bad. She was in an abusive relationship and he abused his self. He knew it was an issue, a very big issue and this was why he was talking to her about it.

Sitting at the bench he tapped his foot nervously feeling the heat beat down on him making him sweat, he was feel it beading down his face and his head was starting to hurt. He couldn't roll his sleeves up yet though, he had to wait in till Sophia got there and he knew telling her all that was going on was not going to be an easy thing for him to do. It was never easy telling people things like this right, and it was never going to be easy and he had to face it how it was.

When Sophia walked over and said she was surprised he didn't pass out yet he sighed looking at her, "I'm close to it. What's with the gloves" he was really wondering now what was with her outfit, he also noticed she was skinnier. "Okay it's actually about well my long sleeves and stuff, and it's easier to just show you. As my sister you do have the right to know" he than rolled up his sleeves to show her his arms, his arms that were just covered with cuts. "I cut my self" he whispered, that was easier then he thought.

[sophia riley allen]

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Sophia gasped.She had been expecting bad, but there was nothing that could have prepared her for the site that greeted her.Soph put a hand over her mouth, but couldn't conceal the tear that feel down her cheek and onto the ground. She was shocked, couldn't speak but she did reach out for one of the cuts. She barely touched it, afraid she might hurt him. She snatched her hand back, scared at what the cuts meant. It hurt her deeply to look at them,so she dropped her gaze to the grass beneath them. "Eli"She said, her voice shaking "Why did you.....do you still..." Soph couldn't finish, it felt like her breath had been snatched out of her lungs. She took a deep breath,trying to keep herself from hyperventilating. She couldn't hold back her tears, and had to snatch off her glasses because it was almost impossible to see through them anymore. Her black eye was now exposed, a dangerous shade of purple. While she was at it she snatched off her gloves, revealing tons of bruises in the shape of fingers, from the many times Kris had grabbed her and pinned her down. She chuckled, one which defiantly was not filled with humor. She scooted over closer to her brother, and wrapped her arms around him. She tried hard not to hurt him, and instead she rested her head on his shoulder. "Eli,I don't know why you do this,but remember, you will always have me." Soph paused for a moment, her head still rested on his shoulder."I need you,Eli.You,Brandon, and Reed are the only reason im not his slave." she meant it.The few rebellious streaks she still had were because of them."Please don't do this" she sobbed and gripped the back of his shirt with her hand "I need you, you mean to much to me if I ever lost you..." Sophia let out another sob. She couldn't, wouldn't, think about what could happen.

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[elijah samuel allen]

Elijah looked down, he knew Sophia was probably very upset with the sight she was now seeing and every time he looked at him arms he almost was to. He did try to stop and many times to, but it was just very hard to and he knew if he didn’t he could end up dead even if it was accidental. He knew only a part of him wanted it to come to that, and a part of him a larger part didn’t. This part knew his family and friends would be devastated, than again he only really had one friend and that was Kizzy who was his best friend and his shoulder to cry on. She was always there when he needed her and he was glad about that, without her he would be another hopeless case. Without Kizzy he really might just kill his self, looking at his sister he bit his lip tears filling his eyes.

“Yeah I do still cut myself” he said quietly pulling the knife he had in his pocket out and putting it on the bench, “that’s only one of the things I use. There’s probably a lot more hidden elsewhere that not even I know about anymore because I no longer really know what’s in my room, I’m sorry” he watched her pull off her glasses and gloves even more tears falling down his face. “K-Kris did this to you didn’t he” he whispered in surprise when he saw her black eye and bruises, “he shouldn’t be doing this to you sis” he shook his head with a sigh. “An explanation is needed I guess, I’m really picked on in school, called names, pushed against lockers, dunked into the toilet, it’s just really awful and really hard to deal with to so I guess cutting is my escape from all of that.

As you know I was never good with feeling, always the more sensitive one in the family” Elijah said quietly, sometimes people seemed to even ask me if he was sure he wasn’t meant to be a girl. When she leaned her head on his shoulder she let him; that was one place that had no scars. “I know I have you sis, and I have Brandon and Reed to but I’m scared. I’m scared for my life and what I’m capable of, rate I’m going you may lose me” he said in a really scared voice.

[sophia riley allen]

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Sophia picked up her head and looked Eli in the eye as she spoke “Yes, Kris did this.” she paused before speaking again “Kids are cruel these days. If you want ill go break there noses” she chuckled “worked for me” Soph shook her head angrily “Those kids deserve to be punished, what there doing is dangerous and unfair” Her hands started to shake in anger, she couldn’t stand it that someone would want to hurt her brother, “ I swear if anything happens to you, there going to pay……” she sighed at the threat. She rarely ever left the house, how did she plan on getting revenge? Sophia put her hand on her brothers shoulder and a deadly serious look grew on her face. “Nothings going to happen to you. I swear I will do anything and everything for you.” she rubbed her forehead, thinking. “There are other ways to escape the pain, Eli. If it helps, I could show you a few things that helps me with the pain” she remembered the red and orange paint that was dried on her hands. Painting was a stress reliever for her, it calmed her and she wasn’t bad at it. Sophia lifted her hand from her brothers shoulder and put it back in her lap. “Painting helps me. Its much better then what I used to do“ Sophia thought about her old habits, then decided to tell Eli. “I used to take medicine to help me sleep. I would take a couple at a time, ensuring I would sleep through anything. It helped with the pain, since I didn’t feel anything when I was sleeping. I stopped eventually, scared I would O.D.. I also lost a lot of time just sleeping. I could’ve been with you or Reed or Brandon.” Also Brandon had caught her taking medicine, but still. She hadn’t used sleep as an escape in a while, and she was glad she ditched it. She still felt pain, but it was mostly because of her bad relationship. Even then she still had hope in it, enough to cancel out the pain, most of the time anyway. “My habits are a thing of the past, you habits can be to” she smiled at Elijah.

Sophia reached for the knife, putting it in her pocket. “you do realize im going to have to get Reed to get the other ones, right?” she gave him a lopsided smile, she felt like she needed to prove how much she loved and cared for her youngest brother, she just didn’t know how.

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[elijah samuel allen]

“Soph why do you stay with him if he does these things to you, things you know for a fact that you don’t deserve. No one deserves to get hurt, preferably you sis because you are such an amazing person and my big sister and you just don’t deserve it” Elijah said quietly shaking his head. “Yeah I know they are sis, I know firsthand the cruelness of them and if really isn’t fair. I have to deal with it every day, it’s another part of the reason I hardly go outside. I’m scared to knowing that people around me could pick on me and me being so fragile I can snap, it’s really not easy even just going to school because of how fragile I am. I get so scared I’ll snap and something will happen” Elijah said quietly. “Sis you hardly go out, you can’t make anyone pay. Maybe Brandon and Reed, but not so much you anymore.

It’s scary being afraid of yourself, because I know what can happen to me and a part of me doesn’t want it to because I know I’ll be missed if something does happen to me. I’m scared about of my mind think that if I cut again by accident I could end up killing myself or a cut could get infected and I could die or something, and I just hate being scared” Elijah whispered. “I write, poems, stories, anything that has to do with writing I do it” Elijah looked down at his shoes. “It’s scary when you’re battling everything, including yourself for the human mind has no limits, no boundaries to hide it from the madness. I wrote that, all my writing is sorta dark.

It use to be my way of coping with everything, even when I was still happy I wrote, it wasn’t so dark back than though but it was still my way to get through things. I just write more now a days, I guess to get rid of some of my locked in feelings. My teacher says I’m a really good writer, but I never seem to agree with anything my teachers say” he looked at her surprised when she talked about the pills. “So that’s what was going on” he said quietly, “wish I could sleep all the time” he muttered. If you were dead you could, but he pushed that though quickly from his mind. “Yeah I know, Reed will take all my knives to. Because I know he cares about me, all three of you guys do” he said quietly again.

[sophia riley allen]

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Sophia sighed again “I know the beating isn’t fair, but I have hope in us. Its not easy to walk out on someone you love.” she didn’t like to talk about her relationship. No one would understand why she stayed with her boyfriend. Sophia wasn’t about to explain, either. All it did was waste her breath when she argued about Kris. Sophia nodded and said “ No one should deprive you of your happiness, no one has a right to. The world shouldn’t have to be a scary place, and it really isn’t. There is nothing wrong with being fragile, I wish I could cry and reach out to someone, this is the most I have since I was 13” Sophia flinched at the truth of his words about her not going out. She breathed out slowly, letting her pain go out with the breath. “Im not sure whats going on in your head, but it sounds dangerous. You have every right to be scared. And you should be worried about your health, it could help you stop.” she listened as he spoke of his writing, smiling at what she heard. “ Writing sounds good, even if you do write dark, that’s how you’ve been feeling. I would like to imagine you writing instead of cutting.” Like how she painted instead of sleeping. I bet he is a good writer, she though to herself. “I could show you my paintings and you could show me your writings” she laughed, a cheery one. It sounded odd amongst all the sad talk, like she had forgotten her usual joyful laugh. She looked up at Eli and said quietly “I wish I knew what to say”. Sophia sat there for a minute, her eyes distant. She didn’t respond to Eli’s wish to sleep, instead it brought back the memories she tried so hard to forget. The many hours she spent lying in bed, listening to her ceiling fan. How sick she would get from sleeping to much, having headaches, back pains, and nausea 24/7. She might as well have been dead, may have lead to that if she hadn’t have gotten better. She was 14 when that finally happened. The words slipped out of Sophias mouth “Did you notice my sleeping a lot” she had been 13 when she started, lasted little over a year. She had still lived with her brothers back then, and the only one who had confronted her was Brandon. She had known Reed noticed, hearing him talk about it to Brandon, but she hadn’t been sure about Eli. She finally had gotten better at the beginning of her high school year, when she had a chance to start over.

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[elijah samuel allen]

“I wouldn’t know what being in a relationship is like because I never been in one before and I don’t think I will for a while either because no one seems to like me. I’m alright with that in a way since I’m really just focusing on school right now and that’s good enough for me” Elijah was pretty much a straight A student, but he kept those good grades by constantly studying and reading books. He loved to read and because of that many people liked to label him as a nerd, and he didn’t mind that at all. He knew just what he was and perhaps he was just that, a nerd and he was okay with being a nerd because it meant that he was smart. He liked being smart, because he knew there were a lot of things that the sixteen year old wanted to do in his life.

He knew he wanted to be a writer, probably either something in journalism or creative writing. If it wasn’t that it would be graphic design and computers, he did have a lot of hobbies and sometimes he had no idea where he was going in these things. He had no idea what he even wanted to go to college for yet, but he still had some time for that right. “A lot goes on in my head and that’s just what scares me the most, because it’s my mind and my own mind has me freaking out. What goes on in my own head has me terrified, but I can’t even help it because it’s just so hard, and I no longer even know what to do and it really scares me sis. More than once I thought about telling all you guys about this but it was just too hard to, because I know you guys would all worry about as my siblings.

Maybe that’s what I need though, knowing that my sibling care and they are worried about me and my safety. That they worry about me and my health” Elijah whispered, “that would be cool. I carry my notebook around with me sometimes, it’s where I keep all my writing that I do, and there really is a lot. In fact I have more than one notebook because I write too much and I begin just filling notebook after notebook” Eli was always one for reading and writing. As a kid he would read books more than play with toys and pretend he was characters in them that was when everything was still easy though, at least easier than they are now.

“I always loved writing though” he laughed a little bit remembering this now, sure his hand writing was worse back than but still. It was a lot better now, “I was really young back then. When you were thirteen I was about ten, but what I remember was you would always be sleeping and you never wanted to play with me like you usually would. I remember being unhappy because you always felt sick, and that meant I would have no one to play with” Eli frowned a little bit to his self.

[sophia riley allen]

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Sophia smiled while she said “You will find someone. Perhaps not now, but you will. There are so many people out there, it hard to believe you wont find someone. Especially because your so nice and deep. Girls eat that up” Most of Sophias old girlfriends would go on about finding someone ’deep’ and ‘sensitive’. She nearly went mad having to constantly hear it. Sophia rubbed her shoulder, thinking. She nodded before saying “The more I think about it, therapy seems like a good idea. I mean that’s their job right? Helping with what’s going on inside other peoples heads.” Soph thought it may be a very good idea, heck she was willing to pay for it if Eli agreed. She turned to Eli, frowning “of course were going to worry, and we do care. When it comes to family there’s nothing I care about more”

Sophia smiled a Eli, she was happy to hear about his writing. She hadn’t known before, but Sophia was glad she was aware of something he cared about so much. She thought about investing in notebooks and books for him. Sophia did like to read, but she could never stay still enough to read at least 3 chapters of any book.
Sophia felt guilty as Eli talked about be upset when he was young. Because of her. “Im sorry” she whispered “ I shouldn’t have been so selfish, caught up in myself. I should have been with you the others” she hadn’t realized she had been neglecting her brothers. At the time Sophia only thought about how sad and worthless she had felt, when she was awake.

Sophia stood up and smoothed out her shirt. She pulled her gloves and sunglasses back on, then she held a hand out to Eli “Lets walk” she said. She was hyped up now and couldn’t stand to sit down. Sophia looked around to see if anyone had been close enough to hear or see the two of them. She didn’t want to have to beg someone to not tell both their secrets, or have anyone know. Period. She knew how cruel people can be, and didn’t want Eli to get hurt any further because some jerk was bored and thought passing around someone else’s secrets was fun.

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[elijah samuel allen]

“I know and I can wait for the perfect person, no matter where she is I know when she comes I’ll go the extra mile to make sure I get her to be mine and I know it will be hard work. I’m not the ladies man like Reed and Brandon are and I never will be, I’m quiet, I’m shy, I’m sensitive and sure some girls like that but I don’t really seem to be the type of guy I should be. You look at me and you see me as an Allen, all of you guys but me are a lot more outgoing than I am and I don’t think there was ever a time I actually was outgoing. I just will never be outgoing I guess and eh I’m sorta okay with that, because I don’t want to be” he shrugged his shoulders slightly.

“I guess some kind therapy or counseling would be good for me, but I don’t want people to look at me and think oh since he went through counseling he’s weak and couldn’t handle things on his own. I know I can’t but it’s because the issue is now just too hard for me to handle on my own and I need more than just my family to help me and maybe I’ll be thinking a lot it just for the sake of my health and well being really and maybe it would be a good idea for me to even. I’ll need to think about it, and I know you guys care because you tell me you love me every time you see me. Even Reed though he hardly tell me he does, I know he loves me because I’m his brother” he stood up with her than.

“It’s alright after everything happened it was explained to me more and I understood why everything that went on and went on and it wasn’t as bad as it was. Sure at the time I didn’t quite understand it, but I knew that there was a reason my big sister didn’t want to play with me and you know you were feeling some things. The same things I might be feeling now, and you just took that as your escape, just like how I take cutting as my escape” Eli was a really smart boy. He just did some very dumb things, and looking around the park he was glad no one was really around. If people heard about his secret and told anyone it would ruin his life.

If something like that happened to him he really would kill his self, being unable to live with the fact everyone would know just what the boy was doing to his self. “Alright we can do that” he smiled softly, and it was actually a real smile to.

[sophia riley allen]

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Sophia held Elis hand as they walked through the park. Smiled back at Eli, who had a soft smile on his lips. She looked back ahead, "Lets not talk anymore about, well you know. Lets talk about something else” she said. Soph had heard and talked a lot about the problem today, and wanted to get her mind off her nerves. She walked for a moment, trying to think of something to talk about “ Besides writing, is there anything else you think is interesting?” she wanted to catch up with her brother, she wanted to make up for all the time she lost, and wanted to start over. “you’re a really good kid, you know that?” she said quietly, meaning what she said. Through out high school Sophia had met a lot of snobs, jerks and very few kids who were actually good. Soph had been the usual rebellious, careless teen, not giving much thought in things. That had changed over time. Sophia smiled as she saw kids running around, playing tag and coming up with there own silly games. Sophia remembered all the days she spent playing on those swings and slides, before her depression, before high school, before she even knew what drama was. She smiled as a small boy picked a flower for a girl, the girl was probably 12 and the boy 6. It was sweet. Sophia thought of being a child again, oblivious to the real world. Sophia smiled and looked down, in all honesty, she wouldn’t trade her life for any other. Even one that was oblivious to all the wrong in the world.

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[elijah samuel allen]

Eli hardly smiled anymore, it just didn’t seem to see a reason to smile when he wasn’t happy most of the time and he didn’t see a reason to try and act happy when he knew he wasn’t happy. He was hardly ever happy anymore and he didn’t look to happy either, he found it easy not to pretend and just be how he was which was unhappy. “Sounds like a good idea to me” he nodded his head slightly, talking about something other than his cutting and everything else sounded like a great idea to him. He hated talking about his problems, and would just much rather talk about anything but that. ”Graphic design and anything with computers, that’s what I like.

I really enjoy the graphic design class that I take because it teaches me a lot about graphic designing” Elijah nodded slightly. “Writing will always be on the top of the list of things I like though, I’ll always like to write” he smiled. Being left handed his writing sometimes make his ink smudge at times, but they say that people who are left handed was also very talented and he was talented when it came to writing.

”I’m glad I’m a good kid, that’s what I try to be because I don’t want to be one of those people that picks on everyone and stuff” he shrugged. Elijah was one of those kids that focused on school and doing well in his classes, he loved school just not the people in school. Looking over at the little kid I sighed softly, he really wished he could be a little kid again. More than anything.

[sophia riley allen]

“Graphic designing sounds cool. Its sounds like art.” Sophia said in response to Eli. She wasn’t totally familiar on what it was, but she got the idea of it. “I like it that you write, Eli” she chuckled “I have no idea why I do, but it makes feel good that you’re so interested in something” she hoped the words made since, they sort of just came out. Soph had a habit of that.
“Im glad you’re not like those kids, You and Reed are the only teenagers who aren’t total butt-heads” she paused before saying “Okay, Reed is kind of a butt-head, but in a brotherly way” she chuckled, she loved to pick on Reed and Brandon, they didn’t mind it, it was normal for them to pick on each other. As long as none of them took it to far, it was okay. Soph let go of Elis hand and stepped in front of him. “Im going to have to go home soon, Can I walk you home? Or did you drive?” she had walked here to the park, but didn’t want Eli to walk alone. Unless he was driving, but she wasn’t sure if he had a license yet “Actually......” she said, a light bulb going off in her head “Let me show you some of my paintings, Kris isn’t home” she didn’t think Kris would get upset if she brought Eli by, but she didn’t think Eli would enjoy his company. She was pretty sure if they happened to be in the same room, awkward tension would settle over like fog, and Sophia really wanted to skip that drama.

[elijah samuel allen]

“In a way it is, it’s where you use a computer to create images. A lot of image designing and animating goes into the development of say cartoons, so yeah I suppose you could say graphic designing is a lot like art in the sense where you are making something. Only different is it’s all on computers, thus it’s computer graphic designing and it just really interest me” he shrugged. “I usually carry my notebook everywhere with me, but I knew I’d be with you so I decided not to bring it but I know some of my poems by heart. My favorite ones I do at least, since I’ve read them to myself so many times I just memorized them, and say them to myself when I’m bored” he shrugged. “Reed’s one but not me, hmm okay that works perfectly” Eli laughed. It was one of his great laughs people hardly heard anymore. “Uh okay, but if he’s here I’m going to have to do everything in my power not to call Reed and Brandon and have them kill him, because I can’t fight to save my life” he muttered.