Remembering

[lizzie8]

Ben stared out of the window of his room on the second story of the house he now lived in, where he lived for the last three years of his life. He spent another three back and forth to different foster homes, and for the very first ten years of his life he was home. He was the place he really belonged and the place that he missed every day, even though his parents were always fighting and it just wasn’t good for a ten year old boy. He loved it there though, because he had family, and most of all he had his brothers. He missed his brothers every day, and he missed them a lot and after talking to his brother Danny on chat he couldn’t be happier.

He knew they missed him to and that they also thought about him, and he was so happy. He actually remembered the way things were at his old home, even though his parents fought a lot he had his brothers. He could just sit in the living room and watch The Lion King, even today it was his favorite movie and he didn’t mind being called childish for liking it. He liked it because he use to watch it with his brothers, and he missed that so much and watching the movie still just reminded him of the things they always use to do together and the fun they had. A sigh escaped his lips, what he wished he would forget is the day he was taken.

Sure he forgot a lot about what happened, but Danny told him more. It was only a few weeks after his tenth birthday, he remember his tenth birthday to because he fell into the pool. His brothers laughed at him, and he was just lucky the water was shallow but he couldn’t swim. In fact he wasn’t the best swimmer even now, he hated swimming because it always brought to many memories on in. Getting taken away at ten years old was hard, hearing your mother sobbing, begging them to please not take your baby boy, watching your home slowly seem farther away the farther the car went, as the tears fell down his cheek.

He couldn’t help but cry, and just talking to Danny on that chat made him cry, he really couldn’t help it. After all this time actually being able to talk to him again was a miracle and tears just fell down his cheeks, sighing a little bit he pulled on his shoes thinking. He was going to go to the park, it just gave him something to do and he needed something to do. Walking outside of his house he stuffed his hands into the pockets of his jacket heading down to the park, glad it wasn’t that far away. Getting to the park and went and sat on a swing, swings were good places for thinking.

[danny nicholas o'riley]

he stuffed his hands casually into his tan kaki shorts that he had on, and then walked down the long hall way to get out of his apartment building. danny was pretty much independent, after the upbringing that he had to indoor. he learned to cook, bath, dress, and basically everything else, on his own, at a very young age. once he pushed the door wide open, the sunlight hit his face, as well as lighting up the dark dingy hall way, ten times more than the stupid lights did. they really should try to renovate, or danny shouldn't be so cheap, and get a better place.

he laughed, and then he strolled down the street. one good thing was he wasn't far from anything. the park was right there at his fingertips, somewhere danny spent alot of time in his days. he liked to think here, and that was exactly what he was doing. he strolled into the entrance, and then past the baseball field, before getting to the park area. it had swings, a slide, and all that jazz. sitting on one of the swings, was his brother, ben. he could tell right away it was him. he smiled, and then casually strolled up to him.

what would he say? he really hasn't seen him since he was ten. he talked to him over the chat, but really? that's the internet. then he looked up to find himself right infront of benny. he kicked at the ground, and said" um, erm, hey, ben. " he looked down at the ground, and then said" it's me danny."

[lizzie8]

Ben kicked his feet on the ground, he wasn’t really swinging he was only really kicking up the dirt underneath his shoes and trying to think of something that he actually wanted to do right now. He knew he couldn’t just sit here at the park for his entire day and he needed to do something at some point in time, and doing something instead of nothing always did sound like a good idea right. All he had to figure out was what to actually do today, and that should be a hard task. Running his fingers through his hair he sighed, he and his ‘family’ moved here to get away from the town where they were living and he started school here as a sophomore at the age of sixteen. Being new in a school wasn’t fun either, Ben knew from experience. Multiple foster homes in the past had him moving around a lot and going two different schools wasn’t easy. Even now he had no idea how long this would all last, and he was sure he didn’t want to leave.

The sun hit his face causing him to squint and cover his eyes with his hands, he hated the sun since it was always bright and in his face. It was also what normally woke him up in the morning, at a kid he would even sleep under his bed to try and avoid the light from the sun. Just really being the odd kid he was, he had to do odd things. He use to do many odd things when he was a kid, and though as he grew up he didn’t do these things as often. He didn’t really see the point in it and things were just never really the same either, everything changed after everything that happened. Looking down at his shoes he sighed only looking up when he heard a voice, someone saying his name. When he looked up he looked right into the face of his big brother, Danny.

“D-Danny” Ben said in almost surprised before standing up to look at him even better, “is that really you” he said quietly looking at him. It sure looked like the Danny he say in the pictures on chat and the thought of that made him smile, “it is you” he said before just hugging him tightly. He didn’t care if he didn’t like it, he just couldn’t help it since he missed him so much. “I can’t believe it’s really you” he whispered as he just hugged his brother stopping the tears from falling down his face no matter how hard it was.

[danny nicholas o'riley]

He tried to remember the last day he saw his brother, and the last few words he really said. It was before he left for his best friends house, which was basically down the street from his old house. He told his little brother that he was leaving for the day, and he would be back before Ben went to sleep. Danny was always the best big brother he could be, but sometimes, he loved to get out of the house. He had too. If he didn't, He would lose his temper towards his father.

Danny and his father had thier moments where they almost killed eachother. They had the cops multiple times at the house. Everytime it ended with mother crying, and danny would calm down...just for his mother. He hated to hurt his mother, anyway. He hated seeing her tears, to hear her hurt. Which was why he fought towards his father so much. He hated his father for everything. it was his fault he lost his brother. It was his fault for the tears, for the family being split in half. It was all his fault.

His face light up when his brother was there back in his arms. Danny always got the best hugs when he got home from his little brother. It felt just like that...but ben was grown up. He put one arm around him, and the other on his head. He smiled, and said" it's me, Ben. Don't worry."

[lizzie8]

To be honest, Ben wasn’t sure who to blame for him being taken away since it was his family and he didn’t want to blame anyone. Although since everyone seemed to put the blame on his dad he had to sorta agree, his dad never liked Ben since he was the youngest of his three sons and he clearly was only hoping for two. In fact when Ben was still at home his father hardly even spoke to him and he’d ask anyone who would listen to him, “does daddy hate me”. His mother hated hearing those words coming from her little boy’s mouth, him being as young as he was. No kid needed to think that they father hated them, but by the way things always looked it really did seem that way.

Ben leaving was also the thing his mom needed to finally end things with her husband to, since shortly after Ben was gone she was gone to with her kids. Hell if he was able to sit there and let them take his son away he clearly didn’t care enough for his family, his son was his family and he didn’t even cry the day they took him away. Shaking his head Ben just cried hugging his big brother tighter, “I’m so scared that I’ll wake up and this will be a dream. Th-that I’m really not here right now and I’d never ever see you again, I’d grow up without my brig brothers in my life and I could never live with that. I missed you every single day Danny, you’re my big brother” Ben looked up at him in tears. It was like he was nine again and someone teased him saying he was adopted, he never knew someday he really would be.

[danny nicholas o'riley]

danny and his mom were probably always the two nicest to ben when he was growing up. if mom was out of the house, danny always made sure he was fully okay, because dad would never. he clearly didn't care about any of them anyways. he sighed, he hated thinking about how his father was. it seemed like after ben left, danny became the hated one of his father. but, that was only because danny almost killed his father once or twice. but they equally tried to kill eachother once or twice. which was why danny had so many scars on his body. all the fighting with his father over everything always landed him a cut or two, once or twice in the hospital too.

he listened to his brother and then said" it's no dream. i'm here. basically for five years. college is long bro." he smiled, and said" no one is going to leave you. ryan is coming soon. he has like two more months in high school, then he's living with me till college." he smiled and then said" you could too when you're old enough." he knew that would be such a wait, but danny would be around for a while, since college has him tied here till he's done.

[lizzie8]

Ben was luckily never caught in any of the fights that ever went on, actually sometimes he only really wondered what would happen if he was. Would he have gotten any scars to, he did have a few for other reason though, one of those reasons were due to a foster home he was in. The people there had their own way of punishment, they would hit you when you were bad and Ben was sometimes bad. When he was upset he would get mad, he had a very big issue with anger and when he got mad he got punished. He shuddered remembering the cut he had on his arm from a nail digging deep into his shoulder, “Danny" he whispered just hugging his brother even still. “I almost thought I wasn’t wanted anymore because no one ever tried getting me back, I thought that because I was now gone you would all move on without me. I-I thought just so many things Danny and I-I was just so scared of never having even a bit of my old life back.

I have you back though and soon I’ll have Ryan to” Ben smiled through his tears, he was so happy to have Danny back. He loved his big brothers, and Danny was always there for him when he was young, even more so than his father ever was since his father hardly ever cared about him. “I’m only a sophomore though Danny, that would really be a while” he said quietly. He wondered if he would really actually even wait that long, “I have a girlfriend” yes random thing to say but true. He had Serenity, “that girl I was talking to she’s my girlfriend” he said it quietly.

[danny nicholas o'riley]

He let his head down and said" i tried, ben. I did. Once, I hit eightteen, I tried. I tried before then, me and ryan." he laughed and said" its actually funny. we ran down there demanding to know where you were. once we even dressed up to look older so we could pretend we were related, like uncles or something. it never worked." he laughed and said" i always tried to get you back for mom."

he looked at him and said" well, i can try and adopt you, i'm over eightteen, now. so i could go for it." he looked to his brother and then added " i always took care of you anyways when you were little. it'd be sort of the same." then he looked at him, and let him go. He smiled, and said" i knew it! i guess i should tell you then...i'm engaged."

[lizzie8]

“You and Ryan really tried that hard to get me back, wow I’m almost surprised that you guys missed me and wanted me back that much. To be honest though, I even hardly knew where I was since I always moved around in the different foster homes because no one seemed to want me. I always complained that I wanted my real family and no one could handle my anger in till I met the Fisher family, their a really nice family but not my real family. I always had you guys in mind everywhere I went and I always hoped that you guys were thinking about me to, as the youngest of course” Ben laughed a little bit before looking up confused.

“You would really try to do that, I mean I’m sure my adoptive parents wouldn’t mind because they know I’d miss you all but I just. Would you really do that?” Ben just looked at him before smiling, “you’re engaged really. That’s great Danny” Ben really did look happy for him to, he was always happy when he heard certain news and even though he wasn’t sure if this was good news he thought he still might as well seem happy about it right?

[danny nicholas o'riley]

he looked at him and smiled and said' of course we tried, ben." he looked away for a second and then thought for a minute. his family was a mess, he knew this. there was so much little ben didn't know or needed to know, sometimes. he smiled, and then said" mom was one of the reason we fought so much for it. wait till she learns this one, man. she will be jumping up and down." he laughed a bit.

he looked at him and then said" i'm glad you found a good family, bro." he looked at him and said" yeah, of course. that'd be pretty sweet." he looked at him, and then said" yeah i guess it's good news that i am. yet, i just learned the worst news of my life yesterday."

[lizzie8]

“I’m just so glad that you guys really did try to get me back, I really did think I was forgotten and that you guys didn’t want me anymore and just that I wasn’t needed in you guys lives. You were all just better off without me and I know now that’s very farfetched” he laughed a little bit before sighing and looking down a little bit. “Mom, is she looking for me even now and will she be glad that I’m here alive and well” yes clearly Ben really missed his mom and why wouldn’t he. She was his mom and he loved her, he would always love his mom but not his dad.

No his dad didn’t even deserve it, never being there for him and just being the one who made him get taken away and he hated him got that. “I am to, they are really nice but they aren’t my family so I don’t fit in. I missed you guys a lot and I think it’d be cool to be able to really be with you again big bro” he looked down still before looking up. “Um what news is that Danny?” he asked.