Stupid in love {Charlie/Ren}

[priscilla jane brandon]

[atrb=border,0,true][atrb=style, width: 420px; border-top: #4e2000 8px solid; border-bottom: #4e2000 10px solid; background-color: #ffffff; background-image: url(http://i739.photobucket.com/albums/xx40/tippykazoo/Caution/green_dust_scratch.png);] [atrb=width,400] I'm not stupid in love Tonight was one of those restless nights for Priscilla because she had so much on her mind and weighing down her heart which made her avoid going home when she got off work and go straight for the park to clear her mind without letting anyone in the family know even boyfriend kyler for which she felt really guilty for but he’d hopefully understand. After the conversation in the chat with her ex-boyfriend slash step father Charlie and Kyler she has stayed confused about Charlie and really just needed to talk to him in person to tell him they were done and she was over him but the real question was could she do it or was she even strong enough to see him again?? Did he really love her? Could she really let him go? Or the biggest question of them all; Could she break her promise to her nemo?? Prissy let a long deep sigh before taking out her cigarettes and lit one to begin a text to send Charlie for him to meet here even it was pushing one o clock in the morning in which she would get lectured by him and her other family for being out so late so she called Kyler to let him know she was okay and would be home soon. She really never understood why Charlie was ever attracted to her in the first place let alone the whole male population in general since she was deeply insecure about her looks yet she pretended to the world that she wasn’t by acting vain and that she could have anyone or anything she wanted,She kept looking down at her phone anxiously hoping to hear from Charlie soon because it was getting even later in the morning and she'd really have to go home soon but she was not going to be able to sleep without getting this over with the more it was put off the harder it was going to be. She kept herself distracted by listening to Avril Lavigne while playing angry birds on her phone as she sat on top of a large rock with knees folded against her body.One of her happier moments with her ex popped in her mind randomly and it made her smile the because the first time Charlie kissed her was when she had just got dumped by that nick something loser.There was no doubt she'd always be inlove with Charlie in some way because he was her first love he made her feel loved in so many ways for that she'd always be grateful to him but he had done this without saying it back to her.The family would want to kill him if they knew about tonight but she couldn't let him kill him no matter what happened right? tag: Charlie/Renword count: 468 outfit: link notes: a few brief words.

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[charles adam walkins]

i remember the day you left

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I REMEMBER THE LAST BREATH YOU TOOK RIGHT INFRONT OF ME. WHEN YOU SAID THAT YOU WOULD LEAVE. I WAS TOO DAMN STUBBORN TO TRY TO STOP YOU OR SAY ANYTHING. BUT I SEE CLEARLY NOW. AND THIS CHOICE I MADE KEEPS PLAYING IN MY HEAD. OVER AND OVER AGAIN.
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Charlie had been having a bad day. He couldn't seem to get his thoughts off of Priscilla for anything. His wife, Priscilla's mom, was screaming at him for everything he did wrong, was doing wrong, and was gonna do wrong. She was psychotic, really. But he'd made the promise to keep her 'in good times and in bad' in those damned vows. And Charlie never went back on a promise. Things had been chaotic since Priscilla left, and his bed had never felt so cold and lonely. Her mom was a mess, knowing her daughter had fled. Charlie was a nervous wreck knowing the kind of people she was staying with. And Mazzy, Prissy's half sister, had been generally impossible. He'd been living in his own personal hell, too. Every time he thought of Priscilla he wondered what he could have done to make her stay. If there was anything he could have said different to make her keep loving him.

He'd found out via the Lipton chatroom recently that Prissy had moved on. She was dating one of the Vampire cult kids by the name of Kyler. Of course, out of sheer jealous he'd freaked. He knew she was being well cared for from friends who had family in the cult. But the idea of her being with another guy, a kid none the less, infuriated him. As if he weren't good enough for her. The idea she'd moved on well..it made him question if he'd ever love again. Sure he'd been in love with his wife when he married her. And in a weird, twisted way he still deeply cared for her. But Charlie actually loved on person. And that one person had left him high and dry. He mentally cursed himself for letting her go at all. Maybe if he had the chance to talk to her again... just maybe she'd come back to him.

Charlie sighed softly and rolled over in his bed. He looked over at his wife asleep with some goop on her face, totally at peace. The whole house was quiet, the ticking of the hallway grandfather clock being the only source of noise. He looked over at the clock again, seeing it was nearly one in the morning. He hadn't sleep well since he'd talked to Priscilla in the chat room. The guilt of keeping that little fact secret had been gnawing at him. But he couldn't tell his wife since she'd only just stopped freaking out and busting up crying out of nowhere. He looked at the gold wedding band on his finger with a scowl on his face. It was so meaningless now! He quickly slipped it off and rolled over to put it in the nightstand. Just as he set the ring quietly in the drawer his phone buzzed, alerting him that he had a new text. His eyes widened as he saw the name on the screen. Priscilla. He sat up and flipped open the phone, taking care not to wake his wife.

charlie, at the park. we need to talk. come meet me here? xo prissy j

His breath hitched as he read the text over again. He read it several times then pinched his arm. Was it true? She wanted to see him? Why was she up this late? And why was she at the park? Had she decided to come home to him? The questions seemed to have no end as he quietly slipped out of the bed. He dresseed in plain jeans and a black dress shirt before he slipped on his black hoodie and sneakers. After he'd combed his hair and put on some cologne and brushed his teeth, he grabbed his keys and headed for the door. He texted her back letting him know he was on his way as he grabbed the ring box from it's hiding spot in the hall closet. It was a short drive from the house to the park and he spotted her before he even pulled in all the way. She looked just like the beautiful angel he'd remembered. He slipped the ring box into his pocket, taking a deep breath. It wasn't an engagement ring...well, it was. But now it was merely a token of his love. Something he wanted to give her to remember him by in case she decided not to come home.

Charlie had to steady himself before he got out of the car. It was freezing and dark and creepy at the park. He frowned and took a moment just to committ how she looked to memory. Charlie brushed his hands through his messy, black hair and headed towards her. The closer he got the more his pulse raced and the more he wanted to just grab her and kiss her and never let go. As he stopped just infront of the rock she was perched on it was all he could do not to break down at the sight of her.

"Priscilla, I'm glad you texted me." It was such a simple statement with so much love behind it.

status, Done!
tagged, Prissy/Skrod!
wordcount, 851
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lyrics, Over & Over Again - Nelly ft Tim McGraw
credit, JESH @ CAUTION 2.0
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[priscilla jane brandon]

[atrb=border,0,true][atrb=style, width: 420px; border-top: #4e2000 8px solid; border-bottom: #4e2000 10px solid; background-color: #ffffff; background-image: url(http://i739.photobucket.com/albums/xx40/tippykazoo/Caution/green_dust_scratch.png);] [atrb=width,400] I'm not stupid in love Prissy was eventually going to have to admit she was still inlove with Charlie while still be utterly crazy about kyler none of it made sense and honestly she was way too young to be this confused about anything yet she was. She sighed deeply to herself as she was startled out of her thoughts by a familiar voice,’Charlie...’she said his name in her head closing her eyes softly before looking up to see him standing not to far from her feeling mixed intense emotions of happiness to finally see his handsome face, slight anger at herself for being so happy to see him and just the all the love that never went away. She bit her lip nervously as she unfolded her legs and stretched them out to allow them hang off the side of the wrong and flashed him a oddly shy smile.”Hello Charlie. I’m glad you agreed to meet me here at such a late hour.”she said softly but meaning every word of it. She could feel her own pulse race faster by the second as he got closer to her but tilted her head to watch him from her rock staring at him while etching every detail of his tall body and handsome face, he was as good looking as she remembered it was making her heart ache even more.”I am really sorry it’s so late but you see I had to see you now.”she said to him before taking a another deep breath and jumped off the rock to walk closer to him and crossed her arms over her chest while looking up at him.”I’m not going to lie to you Charlie I’ve missed you terribly and it’s tearing me apart at I don’t see you anymore. I miss being able talk to you about my problems and you telling me it will be all be okay because you always made sure i was never sad.”she add practically stuttering over some of the words but she was doing better then she thought she would since she was able to keep eye contact with him but she was fighting the urge to jump into his arms and not cry. The young girl's heart was really ripping into halves over these two males and honestly she never believed it would be possible for her to be inlove with anyone let alone two people at the same time but they were both amazing except for the small factor Charlie did not tell her how he really felt until she left home and Kyler was always honest about those things. "God damn it...i originally asked you here to tell you that i could never see you again but i was lying to myself..this is an excuse just to see you and i don't know what to do. I still love you but i also love him and his family i feel apart of it. the feeling that i only felt with you not from mom or Mazzy."she explained before breaking down into tears falling to her knees."Charlie i'm so sorry i am such a screw up but i've missed you so badly.."She added while sobbing with her face in her hands blonde hair covered them. tag: Charlie/Renword count: 538 outfit: link notes: a few brief words.

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[charles adam walkins]

i remember the day you left

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When he saw Priscilla sitting on that rock he could barely contain himself. He was a mess and had been since she left. He'd missed her every single moment she'd been gone. He'd missed the feel of her skin, the smell of her floral perfume, the way she held herself when she walked, the soft tone of her voice murmuring his name. His hands shook, sweaty like a foolish schoolboy. The closer his steps took him to Priscilla the more nervous he got. What if she simply told him she didn't want to see him ever again. What if she admitted she....loved that freaky kid? He had to admit, he wanted to see her happy. Had been silently wishing to whatever diety would listen that she was safe and warm. All he wanted was for her to smile again, like she used to. But if that smile was for another guy..he wasn't sure he could handle it. The memory of the night she left played in his head like a movie reel. He should have pleaded with her to stay. But they were both so angry. They were both at fault.

When she spoke, that soft tone was back in her voice, and Charlie's breath stuck in his throat. She still sounded the same. That voice his dreams had been chasing around was speaking to him. His angel was sitting under the moon and stars and he could tell both their hearts were breaking. Even in that one sentence things seemed too final. As if this might be the last night they had together. Forever. He couldn't bear that. He couldn't imagine, couldn't entertain the thought of her leaving him forever. Finality was not an option for him anymore. Not once he realized he'd fallen head over heels in love with Priscilla. He listened as she apologised and he wanted to beg of her not to say sorry, that he was totally at fault. He merely stayed silent, though had a half-smile on his lips. Showing it was okay.

When she jumped down off of the rock he had to resist the urge to try to catch her. Always worrying about her safety. When she said she missed him his heart leaped. He knew exactly what she was talking about. He'd missed being able to have a conversation with her. Telling her about his day, about the idiots at work. About the traffic, about how every second thought was entirely of her. When she said he never let her be sad his heart literally broke. Oh god. He hadn't realized... he ran a hand through his messy, dark hair and looked down, trying to keep a steady breath.

"Priscilla, you have no idea how much I've missed you. Every other thought is about you. Every dream I've had has been about you. I miss having coffee at that greasy diner in town, well after midnight. I miss you listening to me discuss my day. I miss...us." Charlie's voice cracked but he cleared his throat to stop it.

Then she broke down. She was saying she loved him, but she also loved Kyler. That his family made her feel like she was apart of an actual family. That her mom and Mazzy never made her feel that way only he had. That she had called him to tell him goodbye forever, to give closure. But she couldn't. Priscilla was no crying and falling to her knees and without thinking Charlie moved forward and pulled her to her feet. He folded her into his embrace, letting her head rest against his chest as he wrapped his arms around her. He kissed the top of her head and rested his chin there. He made shushing noises and rubbed her back before speaking.

"Priscilla, you're not a screw up. We've both made mistakes, said things we regret saying. Done things out of spite and anger. You're no more at fault than me. I'm so sorry I didn't tell you my real feelings sooner. But I'll say it now. I love you. I'm in love with you. I can't imagine my days without you and my nights have never been so lonely. Priscilla, I- I got you something, but I understand if you don't...don't want it," He slipped an arm free and pulled the ring out of his pocket and pressed it into her palm, "Priscilla, I had this for you..before you left. When I told you I loved you I'd planned to give it to you. It's a pr-promise ring. Promising I'd never stop loving you and I'd find a way to make things right."

status, Done!
tagged, Prissy/Skrod!
wordcount, 794
outfit, Click!
lyrics, Over & Over Again - Nelly ft Tim McGraw
credit, JESH @ CAUTION 2.0
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