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[anna janice robertson]

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alix, are you there? I really need to talk to you.
it's important, or atleast to me.

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Yes, Anna, I am here.
What do you want?
Are you okay?

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oh yes, i am fine, alix.
i just found out one of the best news ever.
first off, we're having twins.
and they're both boys alix! so cute right?
but.... the doctor told me that baby b,
isn't in the best health. he's wicked tiny,
and they think it's his heart...
i've been crying since i got home at two...

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Wait...what?
Twins?
And both boys?
Oh wow! That is great!
.....
His...heart?
Well, Anna, you know I'm here.
I should apologize for my actions.
I was just... caught off gaurd.
It hurts, you know?

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yes, i know! i couldn't even believe it.
i can't even wait.
i only had one name picked out for a
boy, so i guess im going to have to look for another.

and, i know. they're not entirely sure how bad it's going to be
though. Alix, sweetie, please don't...
just don't apologize. I understand this.
it wasn't easy for me either.
you have to realize that i really do love you.
but.... i can't let my sons grow up in this life-style.

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Perhaps Leandre for the other boy? It is French meaning 'lion-man'.
Showing he's got his father's strong will.
Or Asce?
It is French for 'Nobel at birth'.
You don't understand, Anna.
I want to be there for you...for the children.
Our children.
I want to be involved.
They don't have to come around
the rest of the people. the 'family'.
But I want to be there for you
for all three of you.


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I like LeAndre... Andre for short.
I was thinking of Caleb for one of the boys.
And you're name for the middle name.

And, Alix, You are welcome to be here for me
and the boys. They are our children.
not just mine.
I have an idea, if you don't like it,
we can arrange something else

I basically live alone now. So I
own the house.
I'm remodeling it, adding another
section to it, above the garage.
it can be your apartment.
so you can stay here for a few days.

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Then it can be Leandre and Caleb.
I like those names.
You really don't mind
My being there?
Because I love you
And I love those boys already

I like the idea
of being able to stay with you
and the boys
That way they get to see their father
and I get to spend time with one of the loves of my life
and one of the most beautiful creatures alive
I love you, Anna.

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I'm glad you like them, Alix!
And No, alix, I want you there.
I never once said I didn't want you
in my life or our childrens life.
I'd rather have you in my life than
not at all.

I honestly don't want to find out
what it would be like with out you.
The past few months have been killing me,
i started the arguements because
i knew that's the only type of
converstation i would get, and i'm sorry.
i'm trying to not be selfish.
but, i need you.

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I just thought you wouldn't
want me around because of the conversation
I thought maybe I'd screwed everything up
and I couldn't bear the thought of a day
without you in it, Anna.

I was wrong too, Anna.
I take some of the blame
I haven't always been the most
doting or unselfish person.
But I want to make things right
for the lives of us and our children.

I need you too, Anna.
More than I'd like to admit.
Can I...come see you soon?
I would like to hold you
again.

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there's not a thing you could do to make
me not want you in my life. Alix, you're amazing.
I didn't tell you one lie.
I mean it, I love you. You and my boys,
our my whole world. I just want my three boys happy.
Our family.
That's what I was focusing on.
The kids.
I can't be so selfish when I'm a
mother, you know?

And, if you can get away from the house,
I'm very free now.
You can see the room I started for the
boys, too.

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I think sometimes
you might have thought I only loved you
for the sex
But, I loved you from the moment my eyes saw you
I loved you more than I could believe
And it scared me shitless.


To be honest?
Sometimes even Leyla
Can't make me feel the way you do.
Sometimes I question who I love more.
You or her.

I can get away. Leyla is asleep
and the house is quiet.
Everyone left me a month ago.
Except Jeordie, Leyla, Rita, and Angel.
But don't worry.
I'm all better now.
And thinks will be okay.
I promise.

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I know it wasn't just for the sex, Alix.
But, sometimes, It felt like that.
It felt like my heart was more investied
in us, then you were.
I don't want to get in the way of you,
and Lyla anymore. And I don't want to
constanly feel like I am sharing you.

Because, to be honest, that's not good for me.
I am in love with you Alixandre Rowan Delacroix.
I don't think I will ever love anyone even close
to how I love you. And that, scares me.

Okay, well you can come over.
And well. you always knew who was more
true to you, Alix. I hate to say it, and I am sorry,
but, It doesn't suprise me one bit,
who left and who stayed.
They were the true ones always.
And I hope you know I am too.
I'll always be here for you, whenever.

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Sometimes your heart was more invested.
I won't lie.
There were times when I would try
to make you jealous just to see if you'd stay.
Push you to see how far you could be pushed.
I understand. It's not healthy for any of us.
The sharing.

I don't know that I will ever love anyone the way
I have loved you either, Anna.
It's more emotional than what I have with Leyla.
She's just...good for me. She keeps me balanced.
In check and all.

I will be over shortly then.
I cannot wait to see the nursery!
I know, I always knew some of them
were simply hungry for the power I had.
Namely, Christian.
But I think some of them went with the Vamp cult.
And that really pisses me off.
Cause I'm the Antichrist. He's just a freak.
I know you will be, Anna.
And my heart is with you, wherever you go.


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[anna janice robertson]

Love is simply like that sometimes.
We push the ones we love to see how
far they will go for us.
I understand it.

And, it's good she can.
Lyla is pretty amazing at that stuff.
And, I can't wait for you to see it.
I have minor stuff up. Now, that i have
to order double of everything, I might
blow out the wall and join the rooms.

And, I guess, a few of them were like that.
And, I can't really say anything on them.
I wish Christian wasn't so fiesty
towards you, and was civil. I like him.
And Evette, too.

See you soon!