Long time no see (Evelyn)

[lizzie4]

Martin looked at his phone for a couple more minutes before nodding and putting it in his pocket, he just texted his friend Evelyn to meet him at the park so they could talk about some things and after the chat they had when she said she loved him they really did have a lot to talk about. He also told her his secret, and she made him promise that he was never going to try suicide again. He said he wasn’t and a part of him believed that, although there was always the part of him that just couldn’t seem to believe it.

Everyone had their time of weakness and when Martin hit the tree it was clear that he had his, at the time he was eighteen having only turning nineteen a few months ago. He always hated his birthday since people always made a fuss about it, to him being nineteen was only one step closer to being twenty and than one step closer to being twenty one.

He really couldn’t say he liked growing up, because he didn’t at all. He always wished he was younger again, like was easier when you were young and had no idea about the troubles going on in the world. He missed those times, there was no wars, no fighting, and scraped knees were the only pain he felt.

Those were easy to fix, and didn’t cause as much damage. Glancing down at a scar he got from the crash he sighed, he knew there were a lot other than that one scar and he hated that. He wasn’t proud with what he done, but he never knew he was going to actually live after hitting that tree and maybe for the sake of Evelyn it was good he did.

Smiling to his self he laid back in the grass staring at the sky, he had a few minutes before she’d be down here and he knew that.

[evelyn]

evelyn scrambled around her house, looking for her flip flop. on her left foot she wore a pink flip flop, but she couldn't find the missing piece for her bare right foot. pausing for a brief moment, she racked her brain to see if she could think of where she might have put her missing shoe. taking a small breath, she looked around her room one last time, before the pink shoe popped out at her. "oh," she laughed. picking it up, she placed it on her feet, making her way downstairs. as she headed out the door, she looked up at the sky. it was bright and blue, just the way that she liked it. the sky was relaxing her, since she just told martin that she loved him, and he said he had feelings for her. but what kind of feelings were they? this was why she was on her way to the park, to talk to martin about what he told him, and about what he told her.

what he had told her really upset her. evelyn had grown to really like martin, and even love him in the course of time she had been in the country. before that, she was in england wishing a guy would notice her. and here she was now, in love with one of her friends she promised she would only be friends with. and then martin said that he had tried killing himself, and that made evelyn feel horrible. evelyn really cared about martin, and she definitely didn't want him to hurt himself, or kill himself. as she reached the park, she bit her lip a litte bit, making her way over to martin. he was laying in the grass, and he seemed to be smiling.

"hey," evelyn smiled as she sat down beside him. laying back in the grass, she turned to face him. "so we have some things to talk about," she smiled once again. evelyn seemed to always smile around martin. she wasn't sure if it was the fact that he made her feel amazing. looking at him, she waited for him to reply.

[lizzie4]

The grass beneath Martin was cushioned on his head, and that was how he liked it. Unlike people he knew he always seemed to find it easy to find his self falling asleep outside in the grass, it was just some of the odd things the teenager did. Then again he was almost no longer a teenager, soon to be twenty years old was a very scary was a very scary thought in the nineteen years old head. Nineteen years and in love with his friend Evelyn, for a year he thought he liked someone else. Bailee, but those feeling now past and the only girl he liked was Evelyn and he liked her a lot to.

Telling Evelyn he tried killing himself was actually very hard for him to do because of that, he loved her and knew that he had to say would upset her greatly but he had to tell her because she had the right to know the reason behind his actions. He hated his life and for many different reasons but everyday there were things that happened that made things even a little better and he was glad for that, without that he knew he would surely be dead by now and he was sure there were plenty of people that didn’t want that happening to him. He was just trying to make it so it never did come to that, because he didn’t it want it to either.

When Evelyn walked up and laid beside him he smiled, “long time no see” he said putting his hands behind his head turning it to look at her. “Yes I know we do, in fact we have tons of things to talk about which makes it a good thing there is nothing else I need to do today. So I’m just free to lay here and talk with you”.

[evelyn]

for some reason, evelyn was pretty nervous. she wasn't sure if it was because she was with martin, or the fact that now he knew how she really felt about him. evelyn had never been in love before, and now that she was in love, she didn't know what to think. to her, it was a great feeling. the feelings of love were great, but then she doubted that he liked her back the same way. evelyn really had never felt this way for a boy before, and it was a really weird feeling to her. she had some friends who seemed to love every boy that came their way, but evelyn guarded herself. there were times she thought she did love someone, but she didn't think so. her feelings for martin were much stronger.

she took a small breath, looking at martin for a moment. to her, he was a really handsome guy. probably the best looking guy in the whole town, to her. she smiled at martin when he turned to look at her. "so where should we begin?" he looked at him. right now, her heart was beating pretty fast, and she was almost sure he could hear it through her chest. evelyn usually never acted like this, and it was pretty new.

[lizzie4]

Funny thing is Martin was actually a little nervous to even though he and Evelyn were still find, even through whatever happened between the two of them they would remain friends. At least that was just what he was hoping for since he told her that he loved her to, and he meant just what he said. He didn’t quite know what love felt like but he had a feeling this was what love was like, it was a really nice feeling and he really hoped that maybe because of said feeling he and Evelyn could someday be together even though there was a slight age difference.

Laying there in the grass he thought of just where to begin first, “I know just where to begin actually to be honest. With when you said you loved me Evelyn because I really do hope you meant it, because I really do love you to. Spite the slight age difference between the two of us, it’s only two years which isn’t even bad anyways” he just shrugged his shoulders a little bit. “Age can’t change the way I feel about you is all I have to say” he added almost very quickly, and it was true though. Age couldn’t change the way Martin felt about Evelyn.

[evelyn]

evelyn took a deep breath, glad that martin had stepped up and said he knew exactly what he wanted to say. evelyn played with a strand of her hair, an act she mostly used when she was nervous, or when she was scared. and there was nothing to be scared of, since martin was definitely not a scary boy. it seemed as if today was the day that evelyn just took chances. evelyn was never open with a boy, but for some reason she could be completely open to martin. he understood her, and no matter what she told him, he never judged her. maybe that was the reason for her falling for him. "you love me, too?" she smiled, looking at him. this was the first boy who hadn't played games with her, and he was always straight forward. at first, evelyn was scared to tell him how she felt, but now she felt much better than she had before, and she was very glad that she had told him. martin seemed to be different from all other boys, and different in a good way. she knew that he wouldn't play games with her heart, or dump her after a few days.

[lizzie4]

Martin remembered just when Evelyn said that they would only be friends with benefits and at the time he didn’t mind that, but as time passed by he grew to actually really like her and being friends with benefits wasn’t enough for him anymore. He wanted to be so much more than that and he knew it for a while, sure he would never admit to it though but still. He was afraid to for fear of getting his heart broken yet another time, yes he had a problem when it came to the subject of girls and broken hearts. His many often times ended up broken into pieces and it really broke his spirit why wouldn’t it when you thought you really liked this girl and she ends up just breaking your heart. He sighed a little bit, he was always one for risks and he was glad he took some and not to glad that he took others.

Hitting that tree was one of those he wasn’t too happy about, he crashed his car, an almost gave people heart attacks. “Yeah I do love you to believe it or not, in fact I do quite a bit and I have for a bit. Of course I’d never admit to it for fear of yet another broken heart so I hid all my feelings I had for you by dating that one girl. Course so broke my heart so I didn’t know what else to really do, but I know you won’t be one of those other girls. At least I hope you won’t, because for the first time I think if you did I would be much more than just heartbroken. I think I’d be devastated, since we are also such good friends” Martin looked at her.

[evelyn]

evelyn truly really only had feelings for one guy besides martin, and he ended up breaking her heart. he didn't dump her, but he cheated on her which was much worse in evelyn's point of view. it didn't mean that he didn't really like her, but it also meant that she wasn't as good as another girl happened to be. sometimes evelyn felt like she would never find a guy that loved her, but now she was thinking that maybe she had found the one who was interested in her. and martin didn't seem like the type of guy who would run off and cheat on her. that was one thing evelyn really liked about martin, he seemed loyal to his friends and family, and she was sure he treated his girlfriends the exact same way. and then martin began to date one girl, and evelyn hated that. it was really hard for her to handle since she wanted martin all to herself, but she promised him that they'd only be friends with benefits. "i really hated it when you dated that girl!" she exclaimed honestly. taking a small breath, she smiled up at martin. instead of saying anything, evelyn slowly kissed martin, something they had done many times before, but this time it meant much more.

[lizzie4]

Martin was actually cheated on before his self and it broke his heart into pieces when that happened to him, he really did think he liked those girls and of course at the time he really did. He was always cheated on or dumped though, he never had much luck with girls and more than once he was even called gay. He wasn’t gay though, obviously he wasn’t gay when he went around dating girls and kissing girls. Normal gay guys didn’t do things like that unless they were still in the closet, and last time Martin checked he was not an in the closet gay guy and he would never be one. He had nothing wrong with gays, he just knew he wasn’t one of them. Martin was loyal to his friends and family, and wouldn’t do a thing to hurt them even when they would do say a hundred things to hurt him. It was just the type of person he was, “you hated her really because to be honest I wasn’t too into her myself. She was always so crude and mean to me, so I guess that’s why I finally ended things with her” he shrugged his shoulders. That’s when she kissed him, he always loved the feeling of that and kissing back he held it knowing this kiss meant so much more.

[evelyn]

evelyn held the kiss, pulling martin closer to her body. the feeling of his lips drove her crazy. it had been a few weeks since they had their last kiss, but everything evelyn was feeling was much better than all of the other kisses she had shared with martin. evelyn surely liked this new kiss that they seemed to share, and she moved her hands so that she could run her fingers through his hair. evelyn's head was going insane, there was so many thoughts running through her mind. one of them was what were they going to do when they were done kissing? would they end up together, or would they remain friends with benefits. she was hoping it was the first option, instead of the second. evelyn wasn't sure if she could deal with just being friends with him anymore. she wanted to be his, the one that he loved and protected. and she hoped that this kiss, and their talk would change everything.

[lizzie4]

Martin felt the same way, even though Evelyn and him shared many kissed through their friendship this was different and he knew it. He was use to the other kisses, but this one had a few feeling which made him just wrap his arms around her and hold the kiss till he didn’t think he could any more. There would always be more kisses, and he knew after this kiss everything could change and he could finally have Evelyn as his. Dating those other girls wasn’t what he wanted, and he knew he wanted Evelyn and he knew that he had to have her. After this kiss he was going to say just that, he was going to make her his and he knew it. In ever part of his body he knew it.

[evelyn]

evelyn finally pulled away, mostly because she needed air to breathe. she smiled up at martin. "that was amazing," she grinned. when she was with any other boy, she didn't feel this way. martin brought out feelings in her that she had never felt before. though evelyn really liked the feelings that she was feeling, they were very nice. she took a deep breath, smiling from the kiss and the fact that evelyn had pulled her closer to him. evelyn looked up at martin again, wondering where they stood in terms of relationships. "soooo," she looked at him, waiting for him to say something. evelyn looked around at the kids who were playing around, having a good time. for once she wasn't jealous of the kids, she was happy with who she was laying with, and what was going on in her life. she was glad that the little kids had an easy life though, since sometimes she had to go through things that she didn't really like.

[lizzie4]

When they finally pulled away Martin took a deep breath nodding his head in agreement, that kiss really was amazing and putting his fingers to his lips he smiled. “I agree with you there completely, I think that was my favorite kiss we shared because it was more than a simple kiss and I know that. I hope you feel the same way to, because I felt something so much more then the friendship we have and now I know that we can never be just friends. Evelyn I want to be more than just friends with you, I want to be the one who holds you close, the one who kisses you on the forehead, or just kisses you goodnight or good bye, I want to be the one you’d be with. I want you to be my girlfriend” he looked at her taking her hand in his, “I want you to be my girlfriend more than anything right now” he added, but only for her to hear.