i promise, smash/daisy

[ethan matthew delany]

It had been already a day since ethan ended it with daisy, and ever since that, ethan hadn't been the same. he hated to know that he fell for this girl that was seventeen years old, and was his student. he hated to know that he couldn't stop thinking of her, at all. His eyes looked up at the night sky as he stood on the sandy beach. He had been there for more than three hours, crying his eyes out, thinking how the heck he fell for a girl that he was never even to see this way. It wasn't supposed to be this way. He wasn't supposed to be feeling these emotions. After his divorce with his ex, everything went numb. Everything. He put his all into his work. He ignored his feelings, and the pain. But for once, in over two years, it was coming out. He dropped to his knees, and looked up. He was crying like a baby. He didn't know how to handle this.

No, it wasn't losing someone that he had spent over twenty years with, and had two kids with that made him do this. It was someone he spent only a month with.. and showed him more feelings than his ex wife had in twenty years. It was the fact that a girl young to be his daughter had his heart. He looked up, and then sat down. He had to confess this. He opened his phone, and then texted Daisy.

" I know it's late. But, I need you. I know, this isn't me. But I need my Daisy. I'm sorry its so late. And I don't deserve you. or this. I understand if you don't come."

He hit send, and then shut his phone. He sighed, and looked up to the sky. He couldn't even believe that he, Ethan, was in love with someone that was young enough to be his own daughter. But, he was. He was so in love, that it was crazy. He never got her out of his head, and that was the problem. He took a breath in, and then out. He had to calm down. He had to tell Daisy this.

[daisy leah mcmasterson]

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missing me?

It had been a little bit over twenty four hours since Ethan told her that they could no longer see each other which meant she had spent the whole time heartbroken crying in bed eating doughnuts,icecream and chips while listening to horrible love songs sang by Madonna and cher why? Who knew. She had only been really dumped by one other guy before and that was because he had cheated on with her best friend then turning around to tell her it was a mistake and he wanted her back but she told him to eff off and go die in a ditch for all she cared then not to long after that she found out she was failing one of her classes ontop of the possibility she was pregnant so her long time teacher slash crush somehow convinced her to sleep with him and he wouldn’t give her an f for the entire semester yet truthfully she had done it just to be able to touch his body because she was just like that and ever since she has deep rooted feelings for him that she couldn't get rid of. He had broken her heart and it wasn't fair at all! She didn't want to admit that had fallen inlove with this man yet her heart just wasn't having it and kept on making her cry for him and to keep fighting the urge to run to his apartment just to beg him to take her into his arms and tell her everything is ok that he'd take it all back!

In only a month’s time Ethan Delaney had managed to make her feel more beautiful than any other guy had ever done before and it was deeper then sex it was about something else altogether at least for her and she was really not at all sure what it was for him not that it mattered since he had called it off she’d never know now. What was it about her that made guys feel the need just to leave her? It was really starting to get old but she had had told him about losing her ex’s child and how it had really hurt her that nothing could hurt more then losing that baby yet losing him was almost as painful! Daisy hated to be angry but here she was crying her eyes out over this man and nothing she did was going to make it any easier except for yelling at him on the phone but that was not her style and she wasn’t about to make an ass of herself even more then she had already.She sighed deeply before she heard the ‘stupid inlove’ring tone go off on her which meant she had a text,”who the hell is that this late?”she asked herself as she picked up the iphone and read the text twice to really comprehend what Ethan was saying and asking.
“Are you alright? I’ll be there in a few minutes just let me dressed kay?”is what her reply text said then she hit send and got up to throw on a pair of baggy denim pants and a grey bell air tank top with a pair of white addias and her glasses since she was a blind bat night when she was driving or reading.She stopped at the mirror in the bathroom and breathed to herself one more time before leaving the house and jumped in her mom’s white suv to head towards the beach with lady gaga blaring through the speakers. She was totally confused of why he needed her all of a sudden but it did worry her because he was not the emotional type usually and she hoped he wasn’t drinking because she did not know for sure how to deal with that then she finally made it to the beach’s parking lot across the street and pulled in to park.

“I’m here. ”she said in another text as she grabbed her bag and began to seach for him on the beach with only the waves to calm her.Minutes later she had finally found him by the shore with his feet almost touching the water coming in and took a seat next to him.”It’s a lovely night..”she whispered only loud enough for him to hear her.

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WORDS,717 TAG, Ethan/brig buggie;outfit, NOTES
MISSING by EVANESCENCE
made by ANYA of caution 2.0

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[ethan matthew delany]

he pushed back the guilt of even asking someone that he knew he broke to make him feel alittle better. he knew that thier was something he had to say. she had to hear it, even if he thought it was wrong to even let her know. He looked up to the sky, the stars were bright tonight, and the moon was hanging over his head like a flashlight in the sky. Ethan took a breath. He was a mess, and nervous. How did one tell someone that they are in love with that person? Ethan wasn't really sure. He never had these feelings, that were this strong... and so wrong to even feel. As he sat there waiting for her to text him back, his mind wandered. Did she even care? Was she asleep? Was she out partying like a teenager should be doing? Or was she home? Then his phone went off.

He read it, and nodded. He replied back " No, I'm not alright." and then hit send to her. He sighed, and threw his phone again. He hated it. He hated admitting that he was weak. He heard his phone go off again twenty minutes later. Well, this time he didn't even bother moving. He knew who it was. But, something.. was making him not want to move. He sighed, and then once he heard the voice, he knew. He didn't look at her, at first. He sighed, and said" The stars are so bright tonight and the moon, well it's not like it usually is." He sighed, moving his hands around. He looked to her, and then away. Ethan was weak. He sighed, and said" I hate being weak, Daisy. I feel weak right now. Very weak right now. Being like this emotional isn't my thing. But I can't do it anymore."

He looked out to the ocean, and took a breath in. He smiled and then looked back at Daisy.

" Daisy, I'm sorry. I hope one day you will forgive me. I really do. You're beautiful, and you don't even know it. You're amazing, shit... I don't deserve you, at all. You're perfect. And me? I am no where close to that." He took a breath and then continued " I was with someone for twenty years and had two kids with her, and I never felt the way I do when I am with you, when I look at you, when I touch you... It was real for me. I am so hopelessly in love with you.. that it scares the shit out of me. How does one fall for someone this much in a month, but not over twenty years? How does one make me feel more than someone I was married too? I'm not sure, but you did. You make me feel alive."

[daisy leah mcmasterson]

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missing me?

Daisy was falling into a deep trance from being mesmerized by the sound of the waves crashing against the shore and the large rocks infront of the lighthouse with the mixture of Ethan’s voice listening to him yet it was his apology that made her turn attention entirely on him. She had tucked a strand of her blonde hair behind her ear before reaching out to touch the top of his hand in attempt to calm him down or at least make him feel a little better?? He seemed to be rather nervous and upset which was not something that she liked because was far from used to it and wanted to help him through whatever it was he had to say even if it was making her slightly nervous as well.She sighed softly and looked at him,”Whatever you have to tell is does not make you weak and also because you are from weak you are one of the strongest men in my life and I owe you that.”she said softly trying to keep herself from crying because she was so damned nervous and not knowing what was making him so on edge was driving her insane.

There was nothing in this world more important to Daisy then Ethan’s happiness and mental health even if it meant that her own pain was pushed to the side for later but she continued to listen to Ethan speak and when he was sorry again along with her being beautiful and he didn’t deserve made her head spin yet she still managed to remain some sort of calm feelings and brushed some of his bangs out of his eyes.She took another breath as heard the rest of his confession but when he said he was madly inlove with her it made her lose it with tears but it was out of happiness and thankfulness It wasn’t something like he was dying or something.

The poor girl was in a complete state of awe for several minutes then she regained herself once more and looked back over at him and smiled softly.”Ethan...you have no idea how happy that makes me feel. I’ve loved you since you walked into the classroom wearing that silly dinosaur tie with those navy blue slacks. You are so amazing that I don’t even think you realize this and all I want to do is show you how much that is and how much I love you.”she said finally in almost a whisper before laying her head on his shoulder to look out at the waves again to wait for his response.

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WORDS,433 TAG, Ethan/brig buggie;outfit, NOTES
MISSING by EVANESCENCE
made by ANYA of caution 2.0

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